Second: had a blast last night. 'Britney' had us ROLLING. Good times, thanks :) Hope you're feeling a bit better, I know we are :)
Third: I introduced Dan to the VS AI (Quasar) MAX last night, including giving him some in-depth training before turning him loose on an NC installation or two. I do believe he now enjoys PS much more ;)
Fourth: Huge sorry to Jen for not making it back home before you left. The paper was good, can't wait for the next one. Great to talk to you again, too :)
Fifth: Jason, sorry I'm going to have to miss tonight due to work. :( Hope you and Sam have fun. Congrats.
Sixth: Work .... -_- .... End of Month tonight, I'm here until it's done, regardless of how long it takes. Sometimes I'm lucky and everything goes off without a hitch, so I get out at about 7. Other nights .... -_-
Seventh: Dan also sucks at darts. He put his last shot in my wall. Smooth.
Eighth: I really need to be more responsible in my sleeping habits. Two consecutive nights of 3 hours sleep, and I don't remember the night before. I think tonight I may just go home and crash, so please don't be offended if I'm not online.
Ninth: The Text messaging thing via LJ for my cell phone doesn't seem to work. I never get the message. If for some reason you want to send me text messages, http://www.mobile.att.net/messagecenter/ is the place to do it. Maybe I should report this to someone so they can fix it.
Tenth: False hope surrounds me. And not the 'warm, fuzzy blanket' kind of surrounds. It is more along the lines of the 'cold, vinyl bodybag'. I've accepted my fate, I really have, but I'm having problems consistently maintaining that acceptance. Call them moments of weakness, I suppose. The real problem now is that they're happening much more frequently and for longer stretches of time. It's to the point where I begin questioning things that I shouldn't be, because it just leads to more false hope. More pain. Bad pain.
"I know that I must do what's right
As sure as Kalimanjaro rises like Olympus above the Serengeti
I seek to cure what's deep inside, frightened of this thing that I've become."
"Lookin' back on how it was in years gone by
And the good times that I had,
Makes today seen rather sad --
So much has changed.
All my best memories come back clearly to me
Some can even make me cry
Just like before,
It's yesterday once more."
--The Carpenters, Yesterday Once More
-Me, Kicking Dan's Ass